Usually high and bright and absolute am I

Usually looking no further then right now

Usually brushing fear away like it was a lazy buzzing fly

Something stirring inside

Something not good

Stomach churning

Acid brewing

Head swimming

Body stagnant

Heart hurts

Soul is stripped

How could this be?

I guess my barrel is full

It can hold no more

Stuffing it inside with no elimination

Fear has a feast on me

Fear is triumphant right now

Fear has given me a black eye

Fear in the form of loss

Loss of home

Loss of security

Loss of basic

Go on I say

Pester someone else

Let me win

Let me eradicate this and start a new

Let me shine again